What is that reverse luminescence within us? It's like an inner light of some kind, right, only it radiates darkness. Is it actually an act of generation? Is it continual? Can we flip a switch and turn it off, or adjust a dimmer a bit? Is it a single thing? Is it a part of us? Is it something else that somehow gets within us, like L'amour-propre or original sin? What is that darkness? I know that we always struggle with it, or at least in it, when we have something important to struggle with. The biggest battle is normally the internal one, right? I don't know yet. I will.
Il y a dans le coeur humain une génération perpétuelle de passions, en sorte que la ruine de l'une est presque toujours l'éstablissement d'une autre. (La Rochefoucauld, Maximes, 10)
Charles Olson said something interesting once, that actually, there is no light inside. the inside of the body, in reality, is a dark place, there is no light, and nothing shines in or out. it is simply dark. or perhaps, a dark light. what's more compelling is why we like to think that there is some kind of light that radiates.
That is good. I am beginning to think that there is an awareness that the body is a darkness. People might want to say that there is a light because we know it's dark. But what are we referring to when we talk about the light? Will, Intellection, reason, the divine, the soul, awareness, consciousness? I don't know. It's mainly important to me because I am thinking about Heart of Darkness, and I want to know what this darkness is in the interior that Marlow sees.